Wpowers, thank you so much for your sweet words! I am so sorry you had to be married to an abuser. I supposed he forced you to marry him out of fear? He doesn't just sound like a terrible man, he is one. He sounds almost similar to the man that kidnapped me. Did you ever file reports about him? When you had a miscarriage, it was not your fault at all. I am sure the stress or abuse he put you through caused it.

I really hope that doesn't happen to the little girl, this man still had at least 2 years. He considered her his "girlfriend". He seriously believed we were both in relationships with him. This man is married to. And he wanted me to marry him also. However, the main thing he wanted was to have kids. I assume to sexually abuse them also. He told me that if I would have a girl, he would take her, but if I had a boy, I could keep him.
That gives me chills just thinking about it.

That was an amazingly beautiful dream you had. You're son is where he was meant to be. It was known that it was better for him to not enter the world where you were at the time. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that.

I used to see the man's face in my son so much more. The man has straight black hair, dark eyes, and dark tan skin. I have blond hair, blue eyes, and very pale skin. When my son was born, he was darker, he had darker hair, and dark brown eyes. Three days later his eyes turned gray. When his skin lost it's newborn look, it became a little lighter. When his newborn hair fell out at three months, at least a month later it started to grow in blond and curly like mine. At 9 months, his eyes turned brown and gray, just like my husband's. I believe he was made this way for a reason, so I could better adjust. I know that someday his hair will get darker and maybe as he gets older I will see the man's face again, but hopefully when that happens I'll be able to deal with it easier.

Thank you, those last words were so inspiring and sweet.