I wrote a few weeks ago, about my mother dying of terminal cancer. I have decided to go in a few days and see her. I am staying 5 days. The waiting in limbo has become unbearable. I cannot describe the feeling of dread! How can I possibly feel love and compassion to one who has caused me a lifetime of pain! She is angry that I am only staying a short time, but I honestly dont think I could cope with more. How on earth will I get through this? And please dont say "well she is your mother after all". Because "mother" is only a word.