dark, I am in a similar place now. I feel like t and I are soooo different, we don't connect on the level I would like to; something is off and I can't pinpoint it.

I do not feel attached, and don't know if it's because I see her only once a week. Would more frequent sessions make it more likely for a deeper attachment to develop?

I am with her 8 months and still don't like where I am with her. Yet the prospect of starting with a new one is an exhausting one.

I don't know if this inability to bond is due to the infrequent sessions; maybe by the time I come back 7 days later it's all watered down.

Or maybe the inability to bond is because my previous t did something so awful it has affected my trust.

I'm trying to sort out why I don't feel the level of connect I want to feel.

Most of all I want to be able to leave my heartache and pain in her office, something I used to do with my previous one, but here I am unable to do it.

Just not feeling the level of safety I want to feel. And too blind to know if it's reality based or transference based.

Hope we figure this out soon, darkrunner.