Darn then the Pdoc Idea wont work as of right now.

I want to point out one thing though, you said that you need to understand where the attacks are coming from. That sounds a little off. I never knew where they were coming from during the attack.So if they are so bad that you shake during an attack, then have those around you put some protective pillows around you. If its just feeling short of breath, then focus on breathing. If its feelings as if you were to die, then tell yourself that your just fine. If it is anything else, think of some place peaceful and relaxing. (this works to take you outside of your body and away from the problem, if only for a little bit)

As far as the fustration, you may not know when you are going to have another but you can know what you are to do during the attack. Like afterwards, you can write down the thoughts that went through your mind, and then confront them, if you need help I'm more than willing to help you with it. Keep us posted on how you are doing!