well, what i thought was coming has come and gone and once again i have found myself single and it sucks.
i didnt want this and didnt do anything wrong, its just time, circumstances, distance. the things that really can't be changed has brought an end to something special and i feel so numb inside, i want to scream and shout and promise the impossible to make things right but i can't.
i have to respect her wishes and desision, always putting her first, even in this. it is what it is as they say.
i am feeling really lost now and have no direction in my life, i know that i can't go through this again, i have been hurt and let down too many times now to do it again, i just dont have the energy now.
ok, i know, theres plenty more fish in the sea, but i'm not a young kid so i have heard them all before and lost faith in those things many years ago.
but we are still friends, if thats all i can have then i will take it.

well, its been an amazing valentines day thats for sure lol

oh well, maybe tomorrow eh!!