Hi,IM new to this site.Im glad theres others that have the same problems as me.As crazy as that may sound.Last night I posted in great detail about the whole relationship from 1985 to now,of my marriage.Took about 1 1/2 hours to type(and not a slow typer).I must have taken too long and said that I was no longer signed in so couldnt post what I had.Bummed me out.Maybe down the line I can get everything sadi,little by little..My marriage in my eyes is over.My feelings are gone for my husband.He has never been there for me in my time of sadness.Never wanted to hear what I have to say about anything.So therefore I drown in my own sorrows.I never have turned him away for anything.My heart has become cold now.Shying away from emotional and physical contact.He knows things are wrong,but just cant seem to get close now.About a year and a half ago is when it was the final draw of my feelings for him.No emotion.I started seeing someone we both knew 9 months ago.It became very intense for this man and myself.There was nothing sexua.We both agreed to this.lWe have feelings for eachother.I told my husband 9 months ago it was pretty much over.He broke down.I didnt.My feelings have went away.I have fallen in love with this other man and he doesnt know it.Yet.I will always love my husband dearly,but feel theres nothing there anymore to keep it together.He always put me on the back burner.Only brought me to the front when he needed.We never dated or have anything really in common.Dont know how we ever lasted this long.Hes a good man in many ways,but feel he is not compatible.We live mostly in silence.I dont want that any longer.I feel my life has been wasted in some ways,not getting to do what I like.He never really wants to do anything,go anywhere.Only if theres others with us,he seems more comfortable.Makes me feel bad.I love him,but not in love anymore.Not sure if I should stay and sink myself deeper into sadness.He tried to do a massive turn around.I feel Im forcing him into things.Not gonna happen.Dont think a councilor would even help now.I asked him afew years back to go with me.He said he had no problems.He should have still gone with me.I spent most of this relationship on my own.Just dont know what to do now. This is it for now.Just beside myself. Thanks for listening.