Thank you, all.
It looks like recent events in my life have triggered this remembrance and caused a repeated upheaval but honestly (as I am taking stock) it does seem like it is having less influence than before (like when I never spoke about it). I really need to thank my therapist and the healing therapy process for this. It feels like the intensity is getting diffused more quickly this time.
Thanks to all people here. I just am entirely grateful and wish you all healing. Thanks for walking through all this with me. Googley, it helps so much to know others who have been through this and that we are not alone.
Hugs and love to you all,
Hunny