As a kid, I was Severely Emotionally Impaired. I would take teasing literally in school, and well I would believe what the kids said, then I would get upset about, but not just upset, it was like an emotional volcano went off. I would cry and scream and even hit people sometimes, these spells would last a long time and happened almost everyday until I was a teen, and sometimes occasionally I still get like that. School didn't know what to do with me, I was smart enough that my learning was not hindered, but they still put me in special ed part of the day, at one point I was in special ed and honors courses for different parts of the day. I also remember the lady at one point that would follow me around and tried to calm me down and stuff.

Emotions still overtake me, even on a relatively high dose of Lamictal. When I am sad, I get way too say and cry uncontrollably. When I am angry, I get way too angry and might hit things, or even push the dog. When I am happy, I get hyper and excited and everyone thinks I'm hypomanic.

Anyway, I feel all this emotion is slowly killing me. As my school reports say that I have, my emotion clouds my thinking. I am very smart, but my emotion gets in the way of that and I can't make very good decisions.

I've had several different labels in my life, but nothing totally describes me well. I feel like a lost soul. I can't seem to find anyone else that has gone through the same things.

I hate emotions.