It wasn't my fault. Why did they always say that it was my fault for not keeping her from getting angry. I could just be sitting somewhere (and often this happened) and she would just start yelling at me and calling me names and telling me how awful I was. Then I was told it was my fault for it happening. That I should have kept her calm. I understand that she didn't have a good childhood, she was abused, but is that my fault? Does that somehow make it okay for her to abuse me. For no one to protect me? To tell her that her behavior is not appropriate? Why didn't anyone care about me? So yes I was a somewhat self centered teenager (but I think I was pretty aware given the situation) but what teenager isn't. Did that mean I deserved the abuse? Why didn't anyone stop it? I hate that it is still dragging me down. I feel like I can't get them out of my life even though I'm no longer living with them. UGH!