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I have been diagnosed with bi polar disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, borderline personality disorder, an eating disorder and suicidal. I also self injure, get panic attacks, and I am survivor of rape. I have some health issues too, irritable bowl syndrome and horrible acid reflux.
Most of time I just make jokes and light of what I have it helps me to get through but when I start thinking it gets bad. I am on meds to help but my moods still change everyday for no reason. I have accepted I will have Bi Polar forever and most of my problems. I guess what I am trying to say it sucks and I will be fighting for the rest of my life. I try to be strong but I dont think I am. I have no self-esteem. I know that is something that will get better but the othe things I have to deal with. I do have a T and I need to make another appt. I know about coping methods but the doesn't make the disease go away. It is very lonely like and empty hole to know I will be like this forever.......and that is all that can be said......not much hope....
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