Thanks Black Canary,

You sure seem to know what I am feeling since you described it so well. I guess I need to be more kind to myself.

My T I think gave me that book you mentioned to read. I remember just the title freaking me out. I always thought of "abuse" but not "trauma" , this T of mine sure has awakened me up to things. That book is a very good one though, I should read it again.