Quote:
Originally Posted by Kaika
shut up head!
many months ago I went back into denial
(people who know me on PC knows this happens
ALL. THE. FREAKING. TIME. Seriously, it's a cycle)
and for a very long time all seemed to be back to normal
Or well.... relatively normal at least...
I thought I figured it out! And did what needed to be done
but increasing every day
Is a kind of tension within my mind
as though these things never really left
and are just lurking, waiting
for the slightest crack in my vigilance
to spring forth again.
It's something I wanted to talk about for awhile really
My issues with these things
but, I just couldn't form the words
I didn't really know what I wanted to talk about
or even why really.
but then I realized this was what it was
|
Kaika
It seems like denial is a place to go to, at times, for some good reasons, at times.
Vigilance is pretty common too during this time, it helps hold it all in a static way.
Sometimes pulling in feels like a necessary thing to do and when safe again you can let out what you need to. This is often a bit of a cycle for me too.
Sometimes forcing things make it worse so it is good to let it unfold as it seems to be.
You are doing well for who you are Kaika and now it's just time to be seeing this.
.