i have known you for 7 years, since your daughter was 2. You have seen me at my worst and you have seen me at my very worst. You saw me after i thought of ending it all... because i just wanted to be normal.
You sat and told me how it wasnt MY fault! You know in your heart it ISNT your fault!
I struggled with the thoughts of it being my fault and the thought of not fighting back.....I struggled with wanting to be normal and not knowing what normal felt like.

I know how you feel. you know that I do. I told about what happened to me and no one beleived me.

You say you dont want to be a victim... Your not! you HAVE survived... You are here, you are breathing, you have two beautiful children. I totally understand that one of these two children came from a man that " took" what he wanted from you. She is still my neice and I love her the same.

I have finally come to a point in my life that I have accepted what happened to me.. I have accepted that I did what I had to, to survive!!!! YOU did what you had to to survive! NO matter how hard you fought, he was in the wrong, he is the one to blame.

I may never get over what happened to me, as you may never "get over" what happened to you. It has been 11 years since my abuse stopped....11 years! I still deal with it every day! I let him have control over me for 11 years after he stopped. My first step in taking control back was accepting that it wasnt my fault.

So my words to you are, have peace of mind knowing that you did what you had to do to survive. Just so you know I am glad that you are here! I am glad you did what you had to, to survive, otherwise i wouldnt have you or peyton in my life!