I just got my reconsideration claim letter. They denied me again. I really don't know what to think or do. I am tired of coming on here and complaining to you guys and I cannot bring myself to really talk about this with my husband. I physically feel like someone kicked me in the stomach. I feel inadequate and worthless. I'm not saying so everyone will tell me that I am not, its just the way it is. Aside from cleaning my house, taking care of my son and cooking for them, I am nothing. NOTHING. I do NOTHING. I contribute NOTHING. I am so sick and tired and disgusted and I'm tired of crying. I'm going to sleep. At least in my dreams I'm not ****ed up like this. At least my bed is safe and soft and comforting. This is such ********. Why do I keep trying? What's the freaking point anyway?