I don't have any hospitalizations, but do you know why? Because I cannot afford to be in the hospital. My pdoc has wanted to admit me numerous times, but there is no choice for me. The only psych hospital is private and I didn't have health insurance until about 30 days ago and I live in an area that doesn't have a psych ward at the community hospital, in fact, my only option would be to go into a state hospital, which, because I am above poverty level, I don't qualify for. So instead I am at my house, unstable and tortured. I've had a dozen jobs, but I am never able to stay because I'm a nutcase. But I guess its just my problem. I don't know why I expected anyone to understand my torture.