There have also been times my pdoc wanted me to go to the hospital, but I just can't afford to do that. My general practice doc has also wanted me to go to the hospital, but again I just couldn't do it.

I've finally found a job that is low stress enough that I can handle it. I know jobs are few and far between these days, but maybe it would at least help keep a job. I still get a bit wigged out there on occasion, but nothing a klonopin doesn't help with. So I don't have to worry about SSD.

My brother is pschitzophrynic (sp?) and it took a while for him to get SSD, and he is really incapable of working, there is no sort of stress he can handle every day has to be pretty much the same for him or he has issues. He was put in jail (he freaked out when a policeman stopped him while he was walking and asked him some questions), and has spent time in the hospital.

I'm not sure if this will be of any help, but I hope it will at least make it so you don't feel alone.