Hi PerpetuallySad,
I am truly sorry for your dilemma. Please know that you don't ever have to worry about letting out all your feelings here. This is a place of compassion--we all understand where you're coming from. We may not have exactly the same experiences as you but we suffer from similar disorders and understand your frustrations. I guess you know that already. Gee-I wish I could give you a hug and say you will get through this, Hang On.
Hugs,
JourneyUpward