Kerria,

I so wish that you could find an inside helper, so everyone could eventually cooperate as much as possible.

Do you have a safety plan drawn up, a contract with anyone, to follow during rough times?

Do you need to get yourself admitted inpatient again for your own safety?

Can you think of anything you can use right now as a lifeline? Something already available to you, within your reach? Any distractions or comfort?

I feel for you, I know many of us here do care a lot for your safety and well being.

Sarah