I wonder if being a health professional contributes to that guilty feeling? I just started taking an antidepressant, after fighting it for several years, and I hate that I need to take meds. I want to be able to manage it myself, and feel like not managing well enough on St. John's Wort and therapy is a failure on my part - particularly because I am a therapist, and it seems like that means I should be able to use my training and resources better than I have.