It is hard not to go through the pity party phase. I actually have to call people to help me throught the bipolar conversations that spiral in my head. It helps. On and byzantine. I love your direct blunt replies. I mush rather have the truth and it is true I was feeling sorry for myself. One of these days I will be able to stop the bipolar conversations by myself. Hopefully sooner than later. today I am feeling pretty good. A little more peacfull. Let's hope it lasts because it feels so much nicer