I just woke from this horrible dream. Has left me feeling such emotional dispair.
Although I know dreams are not reality, they do signify things which are troubling us. I suppose it's a matter of how we rationalize them, if that's even necessary.

The last time I woke upset like this was many years ago when I had a dream about my mom's death. It left me moarning her passing for 3 days, despite she was still alive at that time.
Decades later, I have this violent dream, resulting in my accidentaly shooting my love, Kristian.
It's stupid, I know...to wake so upset over something which isn't real.
I can't help but to try to understand, though, why I wake so upset..in tears.
Perhaps, it's just waking in the midst of all that emotion...I dunno.

I find analyzing dreams facinating, and I'm usually pretty good with making sense of them. But when they leave me so emotional like this, I can't seem to make heads or tails of it.
Maybe, some aren't meant to be made sense of.

Ehhh...nuff said.

Shangrala