((((birdcrazy))))

Thank you for posting. I am sorry you have had to go through all of this. I can understand hating emotions. I guess for different reasons. I was not allowed to have emotions as a child and now that they are coming I do not know what to do with them. And I have to say that many scare me.

I can feel anger but I turn it inward because I feel I deserve it. Sadness fills me and overwhelms to a point that at times I wonder if the tears will ever stop. Fear seems to almost paralyze me. It scares me even though that is one emotion that was drilled into me from a very early age. Happiness asks what is going to happen now.

I know the other emotions are within me but buried within all that live in me. To touch that is to painful and something I have started to feel at times before pulling back and hiding again.

Hang in there and with time and help you will be able to understand them more and put them where they go. One day at a time. Thank you for posting. Please keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps