I actually am going to University of Arkansas so I will be a Razorback lol

I told him earlier that I don't think we are stable enough to move there together right now. We went for a prelim counseling session and they were supposed to place us with a couples counselor but have never called either of us back.

When I told him my concerns about moving there together he said that it makes sense and he understands. He just keeps saying how horrible he feels for letting it get to this point. We talked about personality disorders and he recognizes his inability to show emotion. I think he understands the causes behind it and sees how he is turning into his father which is good. The simple fact that he sees something is wrong is what keeps me around I guess.

I know that he cares about me and I can see that it really hurts him when he hurts me. I just know that its not the easiest thing in the world to find someone that you know for a fact loves you and cares about you. So that is what makes me want to work it out. I know that we have fun together and have pretty much all of the same interests. Its the simple act of communication that gets in our way. I'm very assertive and say exactly what I mean whereas he is more passive aggressive. What bothers me is that i can see right through it. I know what he is thinking without him saying it so it makes me angry when I know what he wants to say but he wont just say it.

I asked him to call the counseling center again and figure out why we haven't been placed. And he really is willing to do anything to make it work. He was not reluctant at all when I mentioned counseling and, in fact, took the initiative to make the appt.

And another thing is that I remember going through what he is going through right now. And he stuck by me through all of my stuff. I remember going off on temper tantrums and not even realizing what I was doing. And he stuck around for months until I got my act together. So on one hand I don't want to deal with it anymore. But on the other, he has always been there for me and I know in my heart that he cares about me more than anything. I'm such a doofus sometimes