Ack, I know this feeling very well. People quit calling because I'm a downer. People talk to me briefly 'to be polite' and move on because it's obviously painful for me to talk to them. People avoid me because I'm hard as a rock on the outside to protect this fragile inside.
I freeze up in person. Nothing comes out right and I just don't know what to say. People are almost always uncomfortable around me. I don't blame them, though. I'm just no fun anymore. But I blame myself for being like this.
(((((((((Hugs to everyone who feels this way)))))))))