Thank you perpetuallysad, Tish and Sabrina. I still can't believe it's been 3 years already.. I don't think it ever gets easier coping with the loss of a loved one no matter how much time goes by.

perpetuallysad, I'm so sorry to hear of your brother's anniversary death ((((((((hugs)))))))) I'm here if you ever need to talk.

Tish, Gilles was actually my cousin, but he was like a brother to me growing up.. He will always hold a special place in my heart