I hear you.... I know that pain. I do my best to be my own best friend and to keep myself company doing my art but somedays the loneliness feels too much to bear. I have what I call 'fly by' friendships. Short and sweet encounters on rare occassions. I put on my 'normal' face and since I can't keep it up for very long I get away pretty quickly.

Just this morning my aunt called for her regular check up with me and as I have learned to do if I do in fact pick up the phone I pretend all is well. It just makes it easier. Soon there is nothing to talk about and we say goodbye. Goes that way with my dad and my brother too. My sister and I never talk anymore. Haven't seen her in a few years and I know it is because I am either uninteresting or a downer.

Either I am honest about some of the struggles and endure people telling me all that is wrong with me is menopause and isolation or I keep it to myself and feel even more lonely around them then I do when I am not.

I hope you are all feeling better soon and can find that something today to lift your spirits up. I will likely go for a long walk through the forest to the river where I feel less alone and am often refreshed by the glory of natures steadfast beauty. I will look into the rock cliffs and the clouds to find the faces of those who look upon me and somehow know me and love me and will stay to listen to me as long as I want them to.

Wishing you wellness and peace.