What happens during sex...
Well, we have foreplay for quite awhile. Then when it is time for actual intercourse I completely tense up, and it is very painfully.

I am still attracted to him. I don't think it is in the same way as I was at some point, but I am still attracted to him.

The fantasies are very quick, not hours on end by any means. And I don't know if they are really fantasies or just thoughts like "Wow, that women has really great (whatever she has something great of)."

I'm not really interested in celibacy. I want to have sex with him so very badly! I just don't want it to hurt!

Honestly, I am pretty liberal in how I view other people (or at least I try to be). My head knows that sex is completely wonderful in marriage, I just need my body to agree!

I would say I'm a nervous wreck when about to have a sexual encounter because I know it is going to hurt, and I would really like for him to have sex. I want him to be happy more than anything, and it makes me sad that I can't give him a fulfilling sex life.