I used to see a therapist, but then it seemed like whatever she said was on the side of other people. My parents for example. I didn't know if this was something I'm allowed to post here since this is not the abuse forum, but my mom used to be majorly physically abusive, and is now very mentally abusive. I have never told anybody that in person except for one close friend. And nobody except for whoever reads this knows about my cutting. I also maybe should have said that my therapist diagnosed me with either bipolar disorder or depression during one of the last times I saw her. (I was seeing her for family problems, nothing else.) So now I'm wondering if the stop was really a stop, or if it was just mania stage in bipolar. And I don't know if I can find someone I trust who can help. I feel like everybody is out to get me, and like I can't trust them. That's why I haven't told anybody about my cutting.
That's lucky you stopped. It hurts so much. But it feels like the only way to get by. I don't know/think I'm strong enough to be able to stop. I have tried before during my "depressive stage" and I can't. It's one of the only things I can think about. Nobody knows about it because I've learned to cover my feelings up and keep them on the inside so nobody worries. Looking at my baby pictures only makes me feel even worse about myself, the way I am, the way I look and everything else. I don't know what's wrong with me. And i'm kind of scared. Are there other ways to quit? I'm worried that one of these times I might not stop, and I might keep going. Because it doesn't seem like too bad of a decision.
Sorry. I just needed to say all of this and get it out. Sorry.