Just the thought of school makes me shiver. Most people have a reason to go to school. It's not the schoolwork or PE or anything like that, it's because they have friends to look forward to. School is starting tommorrow and I'm just about to go insane. I start thinking thoughts about getting a gun and shooting the people who hurt me in any way and saving the last bullet for myself. I thought about going to therapy but its $200 an hour and thats something i will never be able to afford. I often think, what's the point of going to school? I don't even get past 2.0 GPA. It's not going to help me get into college. I don't even have friends to look forward to. Why live? I do nothing to help the world, I just stay home and play games all day. I seriously want to go insane and just die, I really mean it. It won't matter to anyone, no one would care, there's absolutly no reason for me to live. So, kill myself? Obviously you guys are gonno say "Don't kill yourself," but there's really nothing for me to live for. I can't go to school. I'd rather get home schooled and never leave my house ever. I told my mom about it, she said to just ignore what people say about you and overcome it. Did it help? Obviously not, my future is seemingly hopeless and I'm not just saying it because depressed people think like that and I read it on the site. I feel like later in my life, I will go broke and go homeless. So, I don't know how to end this so i'll just end it here.