Well, lets see...you went to the doctor who is trained to treat your anxiety. He gave you a script to treat it and a friend you claim is a little nutty told you how bad they were so you never took them. You say your anxiety is back again and you just do not know what to do. Assuming I have this right, I do not think the choice you made about who's advice to take was not a good one. Hopefully you can make a helpful choice this time. Good luck and keep posting.