My t saw it in me immediately, Sannah. I get anxious and tense up like I'm going to break in half.

As far as the way I choose to phrase what I do, I don't consider it harsh at all. I choose to continue going through this cycle. I know how to get out of it. It DO process my feelings IF I do what I know how to do. It's my phrase for myself; I'm not using it for anyone else. It helps motivate me to break old habits.