Wow. You get huge dragon hugs for this

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**And because of what you did to me, I cannot wish harm on you. You stole away my desire for vengeance with your deviant acts. I wish the fifth ring of Hell on your soul forever. **

-to me this is so important. Because for you, and I'm sure for lots of people (me included) it almost seems like we're raised with this little battery inside that never runs out and it makes us *love* the person who did these horrible things to us. The closer they are to us (brother sister, mother father) the more we love them and the more it hurts at the same time. it's like pouring salt into a wound, or a lemon over a cut... it feels like you can never get away.

so I made my own rules. I can love someone and not like them. it's like having respect for someone because they worked hard to be your boss, but not LIKING them becuase they're (looking for a nice word here) not very nice.

For me personally, I would have a really hard time with this. Because I have such a hard time being mad at anyone but myself. And I can't IMAGINE making someone feel the way I did growing up. So I can believe that trying to make the aggressor feel the pain you went through would be very disturbing to you, but also it seems like it could be catharsistic (not sure of the spelling) for you.

If I wasn't in the library with a million people all around me I think I'd be bawling, and that's not something I do very easily at all. Those are the only words that I can offer to show you how moved and important this is to me.

-dragon