I know what's causing the distress, it's my own doing... that I've made the decision to start seeing a therapist (which I go to see for the first time on Friday) and "opening" up to whatever is inside via free writing, meditation, etc. (instead of keeping it blocked and fighting it, which I had learned as a way of life) Now it feels like the flood gates have opened and I am completely overwhelmed. It's been about a week since I stumbled upon info about DID and started exploring this direction, and as the past week has progressed, I feel like I'm starting to crumble.