thank you all for this whole thread. wow-- it's opening my eyes!

I'm struggling with what Sannah wrote..... about really "feeling" those feelings.......

I've thought that if I didn't allow those feelings, then I'd be safe.... but.... this thread has got me thinking, maybe THAT is one thing contributing to me not moving as forward as I need to.....
I'm so fearful of acknowledging those awful feelings though-- if I do then that means it's all really real.... God, what if I implode.
ugh.... have an upset stomach just thinking about feeling......
no wonder I've never liked horror movies-- what goes on on the inside is more than terrifying.

farmergirl-- it sounds like you are going down an admirable path. I hope you are proud of yourself.

fins