Purple_fins...

It's taken me a LONG TIME but I have really been feeling my feelings both in session and at home. It's hard. It hurts and sometimes I don't even think I will survive it...it's just so painful and scary, and there is so much shame and yuck. But what I'm finding is...one I face those feelings, I really can begin to move forward. I don't understand how it works at all, but it's happened in my therapy over and over again. My real, true, big growth and healing always follows my darkest, hardest periods.

It's hard to let myself "go there" and have faith that it will happen this way..but sometimes the feelings just overtake me and I can't run from them anymore.

Healing is hard hard work. But just the fact that you are thinking about being willing to feel your feelings is huge. HUGE. Good for you.