For me, the way it is... It's hard for me to write this out because it's not part of my normal 'routine'... And any time I do something a different way (not just a little different, but like, noticeably different I mean) I get panicked and worry that I won't be able to sleep that night because I did it a different way. I don't know why it all goes back to being about sleep but it does for me haha... And sometime when I feel that I'm sliding back into my old ways I worry too... I just don't know what to do anymore.