Something happened to me today. I'm not doing ok with this. I need to get this OFF OF ME. I got his email from my aunt today.

Dear Family and friends,
Many of you know, My Sister, Cindy, and I have been looking for our Sister, Patty, for over two years now.
We are planning to take a trip very soon, just to see that her dwelling place is better than I imagine and to see if there's anything we can do to help - IF we get that far with the visit. It will be a "walk on eggshells" event, I am thinking, but we must finish this journey back to her.
Please to continue to pray for us as we locate our baby Sister and that we find out for ourselves that she is not in grave need of anything. Please pray for Patty most of all. She is, I think, so far away from the norm, I fear for her well being.
My little sister is simply lost and I need to be obedient to His will and reach out and touch......this.... l o s t..... s o u l .... and , maybe, only through intercessory prayers, bring her back to His touch, and find a way to bring her back to the Fold.

I am beside myself. THEY STILL CARE MORE ABOUT HER CRAZY *** THAN THEY DO MY FEELINGS. You know how I found out? Through a daggum EMAIL. Nobody bothered to call ME with all the calling around. For thirty goddurn years they keep the secret of all the things she did to me, and then TODAY, the can't keep secret that they know where she is, at least until soemone has the DECENCY to tell her child; me. Noooo it gets posted all over the friggin email and family website.

I've been in this manic crazy mood all afternoon. If it wasn't for having the kids right here with me I'd probablly be bleeding all over myself by now.