It's my dad's mom, my mom's parent's both passed away forever ago, so it's the other side. I guess I could. I'm just scared to tell. I don't want to scare her or give her a heart attack or something. She's struggling a bit heathwise, so I just don't know. Actually I'm kind of scared to tell anybody in person. I hate looking weak or crying in front of people. It feels...unsafe and weird. Like they will just laugh or take advantage or something. I want to get help, well..I do currently at least. Yeah I guess I can try talking to a therapist at school also. But still. I don't even know how to talk to someone about any of this at all. Am I supposed to just say I cut myself, hate myself, have suicidal tendencies, and have an abusive mom? Because that seems really scary to do. How do you tell people about any of this? That's true. I did used to love life and want to keep living. I did used to love everything and be happy. Even with the abuse. I was like that until...maybe 2.5 years ago? All of this stuff is pretty recent still. Well..if 2.5 years is recent. I don't know. Turns out I take vitamin B supplement pills. I didn't really connect the dots until just now when I googled vitamin b. again, sorry if it sounds like im not listening or something, i am.

Mhm. Again,definately true. Yeah.I hate dealing with scars. Recently I went way deeper then I meant to and it is extremely hard to hide.The thing is i can't really do that because i need to hide it from my parents so that would be obvious.And anyway,I use my nails half the time and I can't really throw those away.Mhm. Thanks.