In high school I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and later ED-NOS. I started the restricting and not eating behaviors when I was in 8th grade (1997). All through eighth grade and part of 9th grade I engaged in anorexic behaviors. I spoke up and decided to get treatment December of 98. All through high school I tried limiting my intake. I was never hospitalized. I dont know when I finally got out of control with my eating and gained all the weight i had lost back plus more weight. I have struggled with self esteem, body image, and my weight...it seems like ever since 1997. At my weight now I am considered overweight. Every day is a struggle for me. My inner thoughts are always negative and always about feeling guilty for eating this or that and getting mad at myself for not having the control and willpower like I had in high school. I guess I am no longer anorexic because of the weight I am at now. for me, it's probably a bit different because I was never hospitalized, but I feel like I am never going to be 'recovered' from the eating disorder. Does anyone feel like this? I believe that you are never fully recovered from an eating disorder. your body may be, but not your mind. Does anyone feel this way?