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Old Aug 30, 2005, 07:57 PM
Anonymous29319
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I was molested, raped, emotionally and physically abused from age 5 (that I know of , drawings and journal entries lead to much younger) until I was 29 by relatives, boyfiend, and I have no idea who else so in order for me to avoid every known trigger I would have to remain at home, shades drawn, doors locked, tv and radio off, and so on. and yea I tried that and it still didn't work for somethings so simple as washing the dishes would send me literally hiding underneath blankets in a closet. So when that didn't work I set to putting different coping tools in place for instance when riding the bus I have a walkman/headphones on blaring music of my choice, I sit at the front of the bus and under a speaker so that I can hear the driver call off the stops. I close my eyes and follow the music until I am where I need to be. You might say my music is permanently attatched to my hip. I carry a variety of music on 2 cassettes - side one just noraml songs I like to listen to, side 2 a relaxation cd called summer solitude, side three and 4 songs and voice recording of a past therapist directly related to calming me when I have flashbacks throughout the day. with these things in hand or rather in my case a back pack I can go anywhere and do anything I need to do.