What exactly is the point of self-esteem? What's the point of liking who you are, what you look like, and how you act when nobody else will? Looking in the mirror, all I see is some stupid, ugly person who will never be anything in life. Well, except a failure I mean. And that's what everybody else probably thinks too. Growing up this is all I have heard, and I can see it is all coming true. My mom has always said that I'm ugly, stupid, and will never have a future in doing anything, and that I might as well not try to do anything because I will only fail. The weird thing is though, I know I'm not stupid, and I have a pretty darn high IQ. I know people like me, but I can't accept it. My mind just can't comprehend that people actually do like me, and that they don't all just want to hurt me. I don't think I'm good enough for people, and whenever I see my reflection I just want to barf. I'm not sure if this is entirely about self-esteem, I'm not sure what classifies as self-esteem, but i think the stupid, ugly part would be considered self-esteem.

My question is, how do you get rid of these mind-blocks that stop you from thinking you are stupid, ugly, a loser, etc.? I don't like feeling this way and I want it to stop.

Sorry for the long message, rant-type-thing. Thanks.