that's really kind, it means alot, i was not sure how to take a couple of these posts, ive never even heard of a troll, i admire those that can open up on here, even though you dont know me i feel just as exposed, its re-assuring to know i'm not alone, paranoia doesn't help, if you feel worthless its easy to believe no one would ever even want to hear your story, why would they, thankyou to those that have put their trust in me, who have made me feel welcome to this forum, & who have been patient with me.