I'm sorry to hear that all that happened to you. Just coming on here and sharing that much is a good step in the right direction, though

I have read some research on trauma recovery that shows that it is not necessary to delve into every detail of the trauma, but rather to identify and deal with triggers and responses. I can try to find the title of the book he wrote on this, if you'd like?

In my opinion, the feelings of loneliness and alienation can be the worst for a lot of people with PTSD, so you should know that there are others out there that have gone through similar things. That's not to say that they felt the same way, or dealt with it similarly, though. Every situation is different, and so is everyone's response. Some people take a short time before they're ready to talk, and others may never be. There is absolutely no set timeline for recovery, besides what you're comfortable with.

I hope the boards here offer you some support. If nothing else, it may be helpful for you to simply read the posts of others that do not contain triggers.