((((Butterflying)))) Welcome! Since youve been in therapy for so long with this T he is probably aware of the issues you have and you both are probably pretty comfortable with each other. What if you were to tell T everything you just wrote? That you are afraid he is getting tired of this emailing and contact from you and that you are wondering if it is a boundary thing. He might be able to alleviate some of your fears about boundaries and bothering him.

Again...welcome!