I've been a very negative thinker for most of my life. I admit I'm very pessimistic. It's affected my relationship quite a lot. I'm seeing a therapist at the moment, and it's going great. But of course, I can't see her every day so there's times where I'm left alone to myself.

And this is when the problem begins. If I'm not doing anything, let's say watching a boring tv show, I will start thinking. Too much. Did I say I overanalyze everything too? Anyway, it's like my mind gets to me and I start torturing myself with horrible thoughts, most that concern my relationship. I'm in my first real relationship, we hit a year a little while ago, and it's scary for me, as any first love is. It's like I'm a hazard to myself. I just drive myself nuts with horrible thoughts of us ending and crap like that. And I don't know how to stop it. I start getting panicky and nervous and it just affects me all around.

If anyone is going through the same thing, please feel free to share. Any advice is appreciated. I feel so crazy for feeling like this.