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Hunny · 10:21 AM

*Please be careful reading this, could trigger*

I am attempting to figure something out below, so I am combining two posts here from another post by someone else and one of them being my own. Then the pink one is my current post. I may have to start again if this question is not clear. Perhaps that is what I am doing?!*sigh*

This is my original post: This is a question that we just not know what to do with and want to say but find it hard to.

When we think we can not longer stand the emotional pain...there is...internally a part that we could post what it looks like but we not want to and not want to scare no one.

She/he/it looks pretty hurtie but we had a our therapist at last session ask us about...it was well needless to say not a question we wanted to look at...but we did.

So the question that comes out is that we don't actually look like this part when we are done but we definately have the beginnings of you know hurties that we know means we are almost going to if we not be careful. So, question is that when we look at all the hurties this part has we not see a result on our body but, you know could be various forms, like falling down, or over exercise, or doing dishes and you know a knife in sink, stuff like that.

So, we want to soothe her/him/it but well it is so diverse we can barely find all the kindnesses to extend to it and at times like recently we just wanted it to be not still internally with us but there it was...Hi we say...but it don't talk or nuthin'. We want to incorporate her/him/it but only can extend "I'm sorry's" and try to remember it be there and that it no longer has to carry the hurties or make new hurties.

Not wanting to scary anyone...but just lookin' to understand.

This is my current post: So, just to claify about this from the above post...sorry that was another part trying to ask on our behalf and I'm afraid it's not all that clear.

Have you ever meet a part internally that carries most of the pain? How have you decided to help that part. What about current pain emotional and physical or otherwise. What have you done with it?

How do you meet and talk to that alter that specifically did not speak because that was not it's job? I don't want to ignore this alter but I also do not want to greet and take back all the pain either.

Yes, in therapy some of the emotional pain is dissipated and yes we are not opposed to certain meds for pain but the questions remain. What will this alter look like if there is no more pain to carry and old pain is relieved. This alter is not necessary part then. Beleive it or not there is a sadness around this.

I remember when it became known to me. We had been studying some other eastern religions and we saw for the first time...like sending the pain away and there it was gone. But not true really gone, just waiting inside as a part to receive all the hurties. Now I want to release her from this task but am slightly afraid what will happen to any unresolved pain. Will I be able to hold it. I will need to do this, that Anderson suggests as an ongoing thing:

This is where I am quoting Anderson's post: "WE no want to hurt others but people have been coming out asking what to do for parts that self harm. We are writing this to put into writing how we help each other internally. But these ideals may even work for people with out D.I.D./M.P.D. We just sorry we are hurting to bad to talk about it in chats. Those that SI do so when they hurt the most and for us we can separate when we write but our feelings are more attached when we talk about it. ………………………………........................
When we started doing this we picked the smallest scare now at the time we knew how it was made but it was not connected to a specific event. With this scare we treated it with herbal creams but Scare cream can be used to. If you can add some lavender oil it will be calming and it helps to encourage new skin growth. Liquid gel Vitamin E is the cheapest way to start. It softens the skin and it will encourage healing even on a fresh cut or wound. Whether the target is fresh or old we treat it the same way now. When we are calm we make positive affirmations statement that we repeat while treating the area.
For example:
“Even though I (WE) feel this pain, I (WE) totally love and accept our/myself as I/We are.”
“Even though I (WE) hurt my/ourselves in pain I/we still love this body and accept it.”
“Even though I/WE feel angry for the pain I/we feel, we still love this body for the joy it will bring us in the future.”
“Even when we hurt this body from emotional pain, we totally love and accept it. We forgive ourselves for the pain we caused it.”
“Even though others have hurt us because of this body, we still love and accept this body as our own”
Just by going “Even tough…………., I/we still love this body.” It is a beginning, a place to start the healing of body and mind. The scares we see are only the physical marks that we bear from encounters that none of us want to remember. But when you let the body knows that it is still loved, the mind will accept it when you are ready to accept it yourself. By applying the creams to all the areas but just focusing on one mark you may be able to start the healing but to tackle all at once it was to overwhelming for us. So we closed our minds apply the cream to all areas. Then we just focus on only one area. By taking it in small groups we are able to handle the pain that came with the acknowledgement of how they had come to be. When the pain of acceptance became to much we started to take baths with oils of lavender, clary sage, cedar wood, and sweet marjoram. (Use only a few drops in bath water) When in the baths we would think of it as a purifying ceremony. We would play healing music and use candle light. We allowed our self the space to let nature heal that which we did not want to accept. There have been times that we cried the whole time from the pain then we would calm down and almost fall asleep because we started to focus on the smell, sounds and the light. Even the warmth of the water was calming when you put yourself back into the womb to be reborn anew. None of us can change the past but we can choice to be reborn again to a new life, a new beginning. The hardest part of letting go is the ability of letting go of hope for a better past. Of accepting that those that hurt us will get their own just deserts maybe not on our time but they will on universe time. There are very few people that can quite any coping technique over night but after each time you hurt your self or even before are better to take care of self. You will start to trust you’re self and be able to start new ways of dealing with the pain. We will try to write other ways that work for our friends to but we just wanted to share one way of self help. This is from all of us."

Also, I could go to a pain management and also to Crew's chat on pain? It is what I would call a little more than a small concern I/we have.

Sorry to go on and on about this...it's been a concern that has resurfaced as of late.

Love,
Hunny