I have an appointment with my p-doc tonight and I am nervous about discussing this with her. I am worried about having to go on another med and going through the side effects of starting another med. She also wants to put me on Depakote if Lithium doesn sit well with me which I am afraid of because even she said that it would be likely that I would gain a lot of weight and lose some hair. That would throw me into a depression. Not that I am vain, but that would really bother me.

I am about ready to stop all meds and deal with my moods. I did it, undiagnosed, for 15 years and it wasn't until I went on meds last year that I ended up in the hospital twice. I am sick of it, to be honest.