I totally understand where you are coming from. I have had the same exact thoughts lately. Its like, why bother? I cannot seem to find neither an antipsychotic nor mood stabilizer that doesn't have such bad side effects that I cannot tolerate them. Right now all I am taking is wellbutrin and xanax. I think my pdoc understands my frustration and he's trying to give me a chance to take a break. I already can feel what its like to not be on anything and I've wanted to call him and ask for something. But I'm determined to wait it out until my next appointment on March 12. Maybe by then I can see whether or not I can deal with things without them.

ALL that being said, I think I'm better being on meds than off. Right now I'm just frustrated. I know that must be how you are feeling too.

(((BNLsMOM)))