FG, I get the feeling that your T likes things "nice and clean" and that things (like feelings) can be packaged up nice and pretty if we just have a strong enough will to put those buggers aside. Now I'm sure that your T cares a lot about you and he wants the absolute best for you and that he wants you healed. It just seems that the route that you both are taking is the zip train, but with feelings the fastest way there is the slowest. (I heard someone around here somewhere make this statement!) Feelings from the past can't be put away quickly. They need to be allowed. We all here have spent our childhoods where our feelings weren't allowed. It just isn't right if it happens in therapy too.........