Wanting so bad right now to just cut and burn my arms so bad. It's taking everything I have to not just take a razor or lighter to my arm. I want to feel the burn or see the blood cause it makes me feel better cause I am punishing myself for everyone leaving me and for everyone treating me like crap. I must've done something wrong for noone to stay by my side. It just feels easier and less painful and heartbreaking when I take that razor or lighter to my skin. So why is everyone trying to take that away from me?